Thinspo

Stood there staring at a sign that said inspiration. Could've sworn it said thinspiration

Story time

Working on my story for the first time in a while. Nice and relaxing despite such a depressing & terrifying subject.

Recovery attempt

Wow it's been a while. I tried going into recovery and it worked fairly well for the month of May and some of April, one of my friends caught on & I promised I would try to get better. I have and I want to lose weight again. I'm scared, but I think I can do it and still be safer about it. I hope so at least. My goal weights are still the same and with it being summer, it will be harder to not eat until dinner, but it'll be easier to get out and exercise.

Even my dog knows

Even my dog knows something is wrong when I start exercising

-sigh-

I don't know what to think and I feel like I'm losing my mind. Not only do I have a crush on one of my very best friends, I started "fantasizing" about one of our mutual friends. I don't know if fantasizing is the right word, but it's all I've got. You know when you're little and you think about your crush and start imagining what it would be like to be with them and to kiss them. That's what I thought about for hours last night. About my best friend. How I just wanted to be with her. How I feel safe and secure with her. It scares me. I talked with another mutual friend about it, and she said she has this effect about her and I'm not the first. But what I couldn't bring myself to talk to her about was how I wanted to kiss her. That is what scares me. I want to kiss my best friend. What do you do about that?

Who I am

I'm an emo possibly bi bitch with an eating disorder

I wish

I wish I didn't have to fight it...