It Strikes Agian...

It's baaaccccckk. The depression that is. I swear it's back. I haven't felt anything since Friday and before that it was either nothing, or something real depressing. Unfortunately I can't think of what could have triggered it. I'm just scared, I thought I was ready to try stage managing... I'm going to try anyways. Hopefully it doesn't turn out to be a huge mistake. Tech in general is stressful. I can't imagine how stressful SMing would be.

EEP!!!

Ohmigod. Best thing ever. I FINALLY found A Ring of Endless Light, the movie!! I haven't seen it since, shortly after it came out on Disney channel!!!!!! That is how I fell in love with the book. :) I've almost got it all ready to watch too :) :) :) Totally made my day

Songs

Songs that make me smile:
1.) The Bitch of Living
2.) Totally Fucked
Both from Spring Awakening
I love musicals

Songs

Songs that make me smile:
1.) The Bitch of Living
2.) Totally Fucked
Both from Spring Awakening
I love musicals

Journaling

I've restarted my online diary and I've started another journal. I haven't had one in a while, not since my mom found mine talking about my S.I. I need it though, I need it to recover from S.I. and I want to recover from it. & I finally have the drive, inspiration, and courage to do it. A lot of that I've found through Make it or Break it's Payson Keeler and Kaylie Cruz. I'm a huge fan. But more of that I'm sure will come. Maybe a blog or two filled

Let's see...

So I just updated my online diary and now feel that it's about time I updated my blog. So, let's take a peek into my life the past few weeks.
Well, I've decided that I finally have the passion and courage to give up cutting and burning. Hopefully for real this time. I want it to be real. I started losing a little bit of weight again, I'm still in a healthy range though, so don't panic. I really decided that, I want to live. I don't want to die. & it's going to be a really long and hard road, but I'm prepared to take the steps to living.

For the first time...

For the first time in a long time, I sort of feel like a normal teenage girl :)