I told him. I told him everything. And he still accepts me :)

Today...

I'm an anorexic bisexual bitch & I hate it. I can't stop it. Maybe it's not ana the way some would say, it's ednos, but it's still me. I don't know how "he" could ever still like me when he finds out. I don't even like me. I want to open a vein, just because I miss it. It's been so long since my skin was opened wide. I wouldn't do it. But it sounds nice.

28-4

500 Cals a weekday. 800 cals a weekend. 1000 max for emergency-one only. Anything else must be burned. Exercise 5 days in the week at least. I shouldn't be doing this, but I'm going to anyways.

love desert me? What the

love desert me? What the fuck did I do?

I just want you to

I just want you to care. I just want you to fucking care. Why can't you care? You said you'd be there. Why does everyone I

Happy Mabon everybody :-) blessed

Happy Mabon everybody :-) blessed be

It Strikes Agian...

It's baaaccccckk. The depression that is. I swear it's back. I haven't felt anything since Friday and before that it was either nothing, or something real depressing. Unfortunately I can't think of what could have triggered it. I'm just scared, I thought I was ready to try stage managing... I'm going to try anyways. Hopefully it doesn't turn out to be a huge mistake. Tech in general is stressful. I can't imagine how stressful SMing would be.